I went thru hell, and i came out with the devils pitch fork, that nigga aint shit!!!
I wanted to quit varisty a month and a half ago, i was getn the worst marks ever, even after actually studying, attending lectures, and seeing a shrink...
Depression is powerful, that self-pity, and self-loathing consume you, u lose yoself, yo hope, and believe it or not quite a bit of yo mind...
They say the first sign of madness is talking to yoself, i was way beyond that. I was not only talking to myself, I was replying myself and having full blown heated arguments with myself. I was a hermit, anti social and preferred sitting in the dark on my own.
Come swot week, I spent 3 days trying to find inspiration to study... I found a whole lot of JACK SHUT!! i found more reasons to quit than anything else....
But I pulled a couple of all niters when the pressure was really on, and even prayed harder than ever, AND GUESS WHAT... 2 FIRSTS, 2 SECONDS... WITH AN 85 IN ECONOMICS
take that world!!!
float like a butterfly, sting like VEE, you can't hit what you can't see!!!!
Im just happy i pulled the biggest miracle ever. I walked out of so many of those exams, barely certain about whether I made 50%.
It really has so little to do with the marks, It's just that after so much going wrong in my life, I managed to make something go right. The mental strength it took to just open a book, knowing I hated what I was about to read, I hated life, and was sure I wouldn't be able to retain anything i study.
I'm bouncing back, I managed to pull myself together... I'm like a duracell bunny on fuckin crack... This is the little boost I needed to get it all together and re-conquer my world, and yours, and your sisters and your hot girlfriends'. I'm going to make this life mine, i refuse to be negative and dominated by fear and sadness and a lack of hope. I'm gonna live for the moment, squeeze every ounce of enjoyment out of every situation. I won't let death knock me down, only my death will stop me, but even that won't last long, whether i'm in heaven or hell, I'll party up a storm... two stepping on water or hell fire, don't matter much..
What are we going to do this semester brain? same thing we do every semester pinky, try to take over the world and fry our livers!!!
O.k. so maybe I might lay off the alcohol, I can't take many more years of drinking hard liquor before i need to steal yo liver. No, No, your liver will do. Especially if you are still in high school, or fresh outta high school, That will certainly do. Watch out for a white ford focus coming off the road and heading straight for you. You won't have time to act surprised, move bitch move!
O.k so maybe i'm on a bit of a high, why aren't you in one? Life is short, trust me I know, i.m 1.65m short.
Ladies and gents, i am back..tell your frends
Float like a butterfly, sting like a VEE, YOU CANT HIT WHAT YOU CANT SEE
Friday, July 10, 2009
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